AHH Slightly Irritated

This week has not really been my week I guess. Well, actually, it probably hasn't been so bad, but in terms of seeing that girl it has. I just have to complain somewhere though, so shut up and take it. My Monday was ruined by my slow friend, as previously mentioned. Then Tuesday I didn't see her, even though I made up some bullshit excuse to sit in her usual carriage. Wednesday, which is one day I know she catches the same train, I freaking slept in and missed my train. Then today, another day she certainly catches my train, some fool had to go and die on the tracks, making my train late and packed. When it got to her station the next one was 5 minutes behind, so she decided to wait. At least I saw her I guess though. Also, I saw my first dead body, which is still blowing my mind. It was wrapped in plastic, so I'm exaggerating a little here, but I was still like WOAH DEAD BODY HOLY CRAP. No one else on my train really seemed to care, if they noticed at all. I expect they have seen a million of them, I just happened to catch the carriage filled with morgue workers.

Okay well I feel a little better having complained, but I am still as frustrated as hell. The last week I have been feeling really irritated, kind of like the feeling you get when you are late to a party you really want to go to but you are with a friend who has to go get some cash out, then takes like 10 years to tie his shows and find his socks and you are just getting more and more annoyed. Imagine that, but stretched over a week. God, it would help if it were actually my fault that I don't get opportunities to talk to this girl, but what really pisses me off is that I am relying on pure goddamn chance, and there's nothing I can do about it.

Ahh, as much as I hate to whinge, it feels pretty damn good sometimes. Anyways, wooo assignments and tutoring. Maybe eating if I am lucky.

Urrghh writing

That groan up there was not really serious. I find it pretty damn enjoyable to write here, and should do it more often than every 2 months. Things have been going pretty damn good for me recently, internet. I finally have positive money again, all debts paid off. Although I am also working 3 jobs. But the money is real nice. I'm thinking of buying a drum set, smashing out some beats. After buying new car speakers, probably a new head unit, some dvds, band t-shirts, albums. Its on the list though.

Still obsessing over that girl again, but for once its not really my fault nothing is happening. I am so damn determined to talk to her, but the opportunity is yet to arise. Its not like I'm not trying to improve my chances either, I purposely missed my train today just in case she was catching the next one. She wasn't. It broke my heart. I get so obsessed over it though, it can't be healthy. Yesterday she was on my bus, but I missed it because my slow friend refused to run. I was annoyed with him for the rest of the day, but didn't explain why. Why do I have to obsess over her? Surely there are other attractive women it would be easier for me to talk to? Actually, come to think of it, when studying engineering the bus probably is your best place for meeting girls.

Oh damn. Assignments. Pffft, there's always later. Sleep though, that is kind of important right now. 5:30 wake ups are undoubtedly my favourite part of commuting (naahht). Makes the days last longer I guess though.