A future

I have recently had to choose what I will be doing at university. Having no idea what I wanted myself, I was pretty much told to do engineering. It's what the cool kids do apparently. From what I know of engineering, it doesn't particularly tickle my pickle. Suppose I have to do something though, and if there is nothing I want to do I might as well do something I can do. Which is not entirely true really. I have always kind of wanted to be a cartoonist. Or a game designer guy (who worked on the story lines). But to do be a cartoonist I have to be a half decent drawer, and everyone I know looks down upon game designers. So engineer it is. I don't even particularly like engines.

Screw this, I might have a shot at doing a web-comic. Looks like fun, and I am sure I can do a better job than half the crap out there (the kind of view that has probably lead to most of the crap). Or at least something that I would like more. Which is all I really want in the end I suppose, something I am happy with. I'd probably do it on another blog or something, linked to from here but probably not link the comic back here. This place is for me, and the other one would be for my attempts at a comic. I don't think they would work mixed together too much just yet.

And still that girl. Damn you past self, future self and present self. I hate all of you. Do something. It's harder than it looks man, you give it a shot. Hey, I'm not around in public situations remember? Ah yeah, looks like it is up to me then. Yeah that's right, please grow a spine and actually put in real effort. For all of us. You now have 5 weeks.

What if I make it a game? Set some goals? Not so good at this stuff, but the successful people swear by it. Alright.

• 1 Point for a greeting
• 1 Point for a smile
  
• 2 Points for some kind of comment, more than a greeting but not an actual conversation.
• 2-3 Points for a laugh, depending on 'goodness'.
  
• 5 Points for a msn conversation plus a bonus one for each time something from the conversation gets rementioned.
• 10 Points for a real conversation, plus a bonus two for each time something from the conversation gets rementioned.
• Actual pre-arranged meeting with her outside of school in real life is an instant win. That will be the end of the game, because from then on (at least I am hoping) we will see enough of each other to work out if it will work or not. The game is really just to stop myself being such a social retard.

Jeezus I'm an idiot. This would be extremely awkward if she happened to see, but I hope in some small way she does (and doesn't freak out and avoid me like the creep I am). Alright, so that's the points. I can already see myself lowering the standards so I get the points while achieving as little as possible, which is why I tried to make the requirements impossible to do that to. I think future self will find a way though.

Go for 50 points a week. It will start from Sunday.

Yes this is partly inspired by Demetri Martin. Although in his system there was no real way to win. I always play to win.

And on a final note, I think I should stop listening to that magic 8 ball. It doesn't always give the best advice, but if one cant trust the decisions of a randomizing piece of software (yes I only have an 8 ball sidebar gadget, too poor for a real one) what can one trust in life?