This is what I write when nothing else comes to mind as to what I should actually write in this Title space

Well, again thanks to the G-Unit up there, things are going pretty well. A lot better than my pessimistic mind could hope. It is mighty unlikely that I get a girlfriend by the end of this year (is there some way maybe to make myself get of my ass and actually do something about my whole insecurity issue thing? I mean, I am sitting back and letting stuff slide through my fingers on so many levels, even though I know I will regret it later.) perhaps I may at least have something approaching my first real female friend. It is a start at least. Christ that is sad.

It honestly annoys me how much time I spend self pitying. I mean, come on. Go do something about it. Wait a minute. I am getting annoyed at myself for not doing anything, and telling myself to do something about it. Isn't that just prolonging the problem, relying upon myself to somehow react to my own requests. How many of me are there? It is up to me to do something, but I have no idea what to do. Perhaps just get some guts and take a risk. Nope, cant do that, too scared. Jeez. There's the part of me getting angry at the part of me that is too scared, even though both parts aren't doing anything at all. Is the angry part just waiting for the scared part to toughen up before it can actually do something? Damn. If only there was someway to temporarily disable this scared part, just to see what happens. If only there was some way that I actually stop complaining about social insecurities on a random web page and actually grow a spine and do something.

I both sicken and frustrate myself.