More incredibly exciting news for my avid readers

I know you all wait with baited breath for each of my posts, so I don't want to disappoint you by going too long without posting.

Turns out this kind of stuff is good for me, writing down my feelings that is. Which is good, I suppose. Anyway, news. I am still learning Russian, with plans to learn German soon. After that I might just touch up on my french (OK, pretty much learn the language) then I will truly be a quad-lingual fighting machine. Except I don't fight and I'm not a machine.

Pretty exciting isn't it? Some of the most mundane facts of my life lain out before you. Surprised I haven't been approached with movie scripts. Anyway.

That girl again. Its kind of sad, but she's the only girl I have actually talked to for at least, hmm, 3, 4 years. And even back then my conversations were mostly 5 minute things. I suppose that's my insecure and overly analytical ways for you though. God it makes things easier when you have stuff to blame it on. Anyway. Its even more sad, but my relationship with her at the moment (by relationship I mean 15 minutes of conversation before and after school on a good day) is actually the best I've had with any girl. What is really sad though, and I mean so sad I could almost cry about it (but I'm a man and men don't cry), is that I can practically guarantee that any attempts by me to take the relationship further will fail. You might think, 'Well of course they will if you have that attitude', but you would be wrong. Look at my past performances. Once, years ago, I had the chance to ask a girl out. I liked her, she liked me, everyone knew. I didn't. I was too, scared probably isn't the right word, but it comes close. The worst bit is probably how I try way too hard to conform to expectations. I am so unsure in social situations, I have never, I mean never, done anything to express even the slightest bit of attraction or otherwise. It sickens me. I choose the familiarity of walking with my 'friends' over the deep primal enjoyment I get from walking with this girl. It is really ridiculous.
Anyway, that's about enough whinging for today. Do you actually care about this?

Ahh well. How have you been? Yeah, you, reading my post. Wow! That's fantastic! Really! And now your going out? Well that's just grand, glad someone has had success. Even if they don't even exist. Wait, maybe if thanks to some divine intervention (I had some suspicions with that last girl, there were some humongous coincidences that led only to my gain) I actually do end up with 'that' girl (saying the name seems way to awkward still) I can read over this and those imagined replies would be real. YAY!

On another note, my posts are behemoth. Just realised that. This one is pretty big, but that last one is gargantuan to the extreme. It is longer than some of my assignments. Does anyone know how to do that thing other blogs do where only the first bit is shown, and the rest is revealed after clicking? With all my readers out there, one of you is bound to know.